Every now and then we need to take a step back, take a moment to collect our thoughts. To go over where we are and what we're doing, to basically review your performance in life in the past few days or weeks or months or years. 
    And I feel like I need to do this for myself because it allows me to notice whether I'm moving forward, backward, or if I'm just stuck. Either way I know where I'm at. And if I'm not where I feel that I should be, I become aware, and I am able to make the changes needed to get there. 

     I did this today, and I realized that I am stuck, and starting to move backwards. I need to make a plan right now to wake up tomorrow and get back in track. And sometimes that just means just taking that first step. The rest will show itself along the way. Every moment is very powerful.  We just have to choose which ones we want to hold on to. And let go of the ones that we don't. 

     Take a moment for yourself. Review your life. Hold no resentment, just be aware, and move forward. As long as your moving forward you will never fall back.

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                     My Darkest Hour

Every day and every night I struggle with this awful fight between what is wrong and what is right I'm hoping soon to see the light. The darkness I feel taking over of my soul is trying hard to play it's role, to completely consume me and turn me cold, to give up on the goodness I've been trying to hold. It's beating me down, it's making me weak, it's taking away the power I've tried so hard to keep. I'm getting scared, I'm not feeling well, I literally feel like I'm stuck in hell. There are burning fires and constant screams that I hear all day and night in my head, in my dreams. Something isn't right, there is a hole in my heart, I need to fill it with light before the whole thing turns dark. I feel angry all the time and I'm ready to snap, and if I let that happen it's gonna be a wrap. I won't come back this time, I know I'll be lost,  in a horrible place at a terrible cost. Please god if your out there I need to see a sign, I need help fighting this darkness and not let it cross a line. Because once that line is crossed I know I can't turn back, and there are people I love that need me and I can't have my heart turn black. Send me an angel, send me a friend, someone that can be here with me so my life doesn't end. I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want this pain, I'm begging you, please.. give me the strength to change. Give me the power to fight back, the courage to grow. Help me find the light, and make the darkness go.

                                     -L. DeSimone