sunlight

Everything is better when the sun is shining.

     I'm not sure if it's just me, but I seem to be in a much better mood when the sun is out. Even if it's raining, as long as the sun is shining, im smiling. I've learned to...basically "study" myself. 

     I try to evaluate my every day life and figure out what makes me happy. I try to learn more and more about ME every single day. So far, I know that I am much happier when the sun is shining. 

      The reason I do this is because sometimes just when everything seems to be going well, when nothing seems to be wrong, that's when I am the most vulnerable. And I let my guard down a little bit. And when something bad happens, it feels so much worse, because I was finally happy.

      Now I am starting to realize what makes me upset or angry, or just in a bad spot in my head. And the more I learn about myself, the better prepared I am to deal with the darker days. 

      I don't have it totally down yet, but i can tell you that on my dark days, all i need to do is find a little sunlight to help get me through. Whether is be good friends, my family, or good music, I find a way to create happiness in my life that day. 

      We are our worst enemies. We need to know how to defend ourselves against...ourselves.