My darkest hour

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                     My Darkest Hour

Every day and every night I struggle with this awful fight between what is wrong and what is right I'm hoping soon to see the light. The darkness I feel taking over of my soul is trying hard to play it's role, to completely consume me and turn me cold, to give up on the goodness I've been trying to hold. It's beating me down, it's making me weak, it's taking away the power I've tried so hard to keep. I'm getting scared, I'm not feeling well, I literally feel like I'm stuck in hell. There are burning fires and constant screams that I hear all day and night in my head, in my dreams. Something isn't right, there is a hole in my heart, I need to fill it with light before the whole thing turns dark. I feel angry all the time and I'm ready to snap, and if I let that happen it's gonna be a wrap. I won't come back this time, I know I'll be lost,  in a horrible place at a terrible cost. Please god if your out there I need to see a sign, I need help fighting this darkness and not let it cross a line. Because once that line is crossed I know I can't turn back, and there are people I love that need me and I can't have my heart turn black. Send me an angel, send me a friend, someone that can be here with me so my life doesn't end. I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want this pain, I'm begging you, please.. give me the strength to change. Give me the power to fight back, the courage to grow. Help me find the light, and make the darkness go.

                                     -L. DeSimone