Every day of your life should be THE BEST DAY of your life.
We are never promised tomorrow.
One of my favorite movies is Office Space. I love it because it reminds me of my life. And the way the world is now. There is one part in the movie where someone says something like, "Every day of my life is worse than the one before, so basically every day when I wake up, it's the worst day of my life." And I just thought it was really funny because I've definitely felt that way many times before,
Today I choose to view my life differently. I choose to view the world differently. There are many people in this world today that will never be happy. Nothing will ever be good enough for them. When I start being a baby and feeling sorry for myself today I decide to take a minute and look at my life and all the amazing things that I do have, rather then feel bad for myself about the things I don't have.
Everyone has things in their life that aren't the greatest. Some people go through things far worse than others. No one has a perfect life, no matter how good they are at pretending that they do. There is not one person that doesn't have personal things that they have to deal with on a daily basis. Even if they're not things on the outside, the "material things" that people can actually see. Some people struggle in a different way. They have a constant battle within themselves, every single moment of every single day. Where every decision they make is a struggle, because they're so afraid of making the wrong one. They're afraid more of themselves than anyone else. They don't care so much what people think about them, but how they view themselves. How you feel inside is how you feel that everyone else views you.
I am one of the people that I just described. It's not that I can't make a decision. It's not that I don't know right from wrong. It's because my past has shown me that every single decision I made in life has brought me to where I am today. People are always telling me to stop being so serious. They tell me to relax, and to just let go a little bit. They say things like, "everything will work out the way it was meant to," or, "it's not the end of the world."
My life is VERY serious to me. And it very well might be the end of the world, for me, if I make a wrong decision. However, in a way, they have a point. I forget sometimes to enjoy my life. I spend so much time trying to make everything in my life perfect and organized, that I forget that I need to smile once in a while. And people always think that I'm miserable, because a lot of the time that's how I look. I'm not miserable. Honestly, I'm just scared. My anxiety over the years has grown far worse than it's ever been. I think every single person that looks at me or talks to me is judging me. Judging me on every move I make, every action that I take and every reaction I have. It's made me paranoid, and it's made me kind of a loner. Most of the time I would rather sit in my room by myself then go out in public where I have can't be myself and have a fear that someone who has no relevance in my life, someone I will probably never even see again, might judge me in some way. They might think I'm weird, or I'm too happy, or that I am too sad,
Today I'm different. I've grown a lot stronger. And it took a long time, but I'm almost there. Because I have spent so much time alone, I was able to find myself. I learned to love myself, and that who I am is someone amazing. I'm a good person, a good friend, a good daughter, cousin, sister, niece, mother (to my beautiful puppy dog Bailey Rose), I'm a good roommate, a good worker, a good student, a good girlfriend, a good mentor. There is so much more that I am good at. So with all of that being said, why do I have so much anxiety about people not liking me, or not being good enough at something?
I'm working on every single thing in my life being so excited. And I start by telling myself every morning when I wake up, "Good morning Laura, today is going to be the best day of your life." I pick three things every day that I want to work on for that day. For example, I tell myself to remember to smile, because I am a beautiful person and there is no reason that I shouldn't be smiling every single moment. I tell myself to be a little more excited, have a little more enthusiasm. I tell myself to keep my head up, and to always make sure I'm looking forward. And there is so much more.
Today I'm working on being extra excited and happy. Everything I do today, I'm going to be overly excited about. This morning I went to wawa and I had a fifty dollar bill, and some change in my wallet. I went to buy a coffee. And I really didn't want to break the fifty for a cup of coffee that cost $1.07. Wouldn't you know I had EXACTLY $1.07 in my wallet. It was beautiful. I was SOOOOO EXCITEDDD. Every one was looking at me weird, you would have thought I had just won the lottery or something. That's how happy I was. It's the little things in life for me. So, TRY IT! It's a pretty good time.
I wanted to share this video because this is probably what I looked like this morning. I want to be as excited as this little girl every single day. And I think everyone should try to find a little more excitement in their lives. Especially if your someone like me. Everyone can smile if they want to, no matter how terrible their life may seem to them. Remember there are always people going through something worse then you. Remember there are many people who didn't wake up today. Find something to smile about, it will be okay, if you want it to.
And if you can't find something today to make you smile, just watch this video real quick, I promise you will laugh. Laughing is good for the soul.